Major Flaw

I was asked to go on the 4th year over-night hike this year. It was being planned by the stake, I was simply representing adult supervision for our ward. Little did I remember that I lose it when forced to follow someone else's schedule instead of my own. I can thank my mother-in-law for helping me figure this out. Over the course of 24 hours I got wound tighter and tighter, because it wasn't going how I would have planned it. If I would have just broken camp rules and brought a book, I probably could have let all the things I disapproved of go. But instead I festered in frustration. When I went to pick up my kids from their cousins' house and couldn't find their shoes, my frustration came to a head. I yelled at my sister-in-law and nieces. Felt terrible, apologized on the way home, then cried the rest of the way after that. Still feel terrible. I love them, they were doing me a favor and I snapped at them instead of expressing my graditude. I only pray that they can forgive me and not have this incident effect a fantastic 10+ year relationship. Lesson learned.